i had xmas lunch at united square today and gee i practically stuffed myself with food cos it was buffet. i relish variety but not quantity as you know me. plus it was really pricey so i wanted to make my mum's money worth you see(: i enjoyed it a lot though cos the food was really yummy=D that i was prettaye worried i wont fit into my uniform next week when sch starts...
i really like christmas you know, but i dont get it the way i want it here in singapore and i havent found the right pple/person to spend it with. actly i have been more hopeful in previous years but it just diminishes by year and im not actly hoping for anything this yr. perhaps when i grow up i will go to a snowy place to have a white x'mas(:

tomorrow's our big day. match against BAFC. i have faith in my teammates and myself . was reflecting on what i have done and sometimes i dont unds why coach put so much faith in me. sometimes too much that i fear i will let him down. i havent had any breakthrough so far, but i feel myself feeling better with time. i felt good today even though i did miss stupid goals, punt horribly. perhaps last time i just couldn't find the knack of things, truly put my heart into it and enjoy what im doing. the point im trying to put across is sometimes happiness can be derived simply by loving your teammates, putting your heart and enjoying what you're doing. success is always bittersweet and i wna feel it someday. i wna get my guts out and be braver, calmer and be my best tmr.

next week the start of sch. i wna focus on the right stuff and not sidetrack. the temptation of going into a r'ship is gna get extremely alluring and it's smth i wont deny esp. when im turning 17 in just a couple of mths time. currently i even have my eyes on this guy but the thing is i know i'm not ready so i won't rush into one. im just afraid he's more in love with the idea of being in love than being in love with me. sounds like it eh. so i wna do the right stuff, and first make sure i get into the right class (BCME). another long story of my indecisiveness from a BCME to a PCMG to a BCMG to a BCME which i shan't elaborate.
i'm really in a moment of bliss to have met a bunch of sec. 4s whom i currently in love with. wanxin my buddy who knows my emotions inside out and always saying the right stuff at the right time that really touches my heart and keeps me going. joan my new found partner who's always sweet and nice and we are in that midst of developing aww some camaderie. chatting with bethany keeps me happy cos she's a real relaxed person like all the time. i haven't spoken much to xinyi and sherlyn yet but they both are nice pple too and my fellow IPs jaime and amelia of course=D we make a great team with such cool and funky year 1s yo. really thankful and like what my dear jaime says this team is just simply blessed with such nice people coming and go all the time so we must try to keep this tradition.
okay i need a really dreamless and muscle-relieving sleep tonight. ciaozz